I grew up in a village in Passi, Iloilo.
Together with my maternal grandparents.
Growing up in a village made a huge impact in my life.
Without my parents around, I shall say that I had a wonderful childhood.
I was very playful as what I heard.
Very stubborn.
Very demanding and fierce.
Yet, I was the one who was loved by everyone around.
I made a lot of friends.
That until today, I miss them so much.
And I have yet to return there for a month holiday spent.
It has been 5 years now!
Oh how I wish I am allowed to travel there on my own.
The permission is given but I cannot stop my parents from hesitating.
Nothing is wrong with my village.
However, they are afraid that I may get influence.
Well, never the less, whatever misses I have,
it is just a phone call away,
but seeing them in person makes a gigantic difference!
Coming to Singapore was a whole different life.
My grandparents were very strict with me back at home,
but once with my parents, they were even striker.
I don't think my siblings are having that experience now.
So far, Alhamdulillah, I am very bless with whatever I have gone through.
I am bless with the way I have grown into.
I am very unpredictable with my emotions and character,
yet very enthusiastic and fun.
Other people can see the bossy person in me.
Catches people like they have own me a living.
Or maybe I am simply a bore person.
Uh-huh!, these are the people who sees only the evil me.
Judging me with only the bad side,
it is unbalance.
Going to school in Singapore was a whole big challenge for me.
I was different from my classmates.
It was not about the 'so-many' ethnics that I had running through my veins,
I was much older than them.
Being a girl too is whole lot of challenge.
Girls simply grow faster and...mature.
I could not participate in many competitions
because I was simply older.
How unfair is that?!
Even if it was very upsetting, I went through the odds.
Secondary school life opened my mind wider.
Studies, social life and family was my challenge.
However, I am thankful that I was strong.
I was strong enough to not neglect the ONE and ONLY.
He was the one that I turned to.
Either thanking Him for the happiness
or asking Him for guidance along the dark road.
Syukran.
I never work well around the Malays in my school.
My relationship with them were very simple but complicated.
I will not understand why I have the distant feelings against them
but I know that my personality of being mature is not the way they want to see it.
If I were their friends too,
it was just for a short period of seconds.
Well, there will be people who will not like you.
But, there will be people who will simply love and appreciate you.
Life's like that...
My age difference made me out stand from everyone.
My maturity level would irritated some people in class or in school.
They never had the chance to make friends before going to bad conclusions about me.
Fortunately, I am glad that I did not turn to them.
Especially being a strict prefect in school.
Instead of being 13, like the rest,
I was 15.
The number was huge for everyone.
But I grew up like everyone else around me.
I was childish like them,
but maturity level was a huge gap.
No matter what age I hit,
there seem to be no difference.
Only when you hit 18 then that is where you will feel different.
That is what those people, who were 13 before, are turning today.
I have gone through that age
and the rest were just going through their sweet 16.
Sweet 16 is nothing though.
It is per normal, unless you are talking about NC16.
18 is where your mind start to think of the future.
Far ahead in the future.
Sometimes, you will get yourself into much trouble than you thought of.
You will just be and get paranoid.
You can get yourself so excited
because you can simply start to smoke illegally.
Well, unless you are the good guy,
you will think of what you want for the better.
Life will soon feel too short once you hit 18.
Social life will be much involve.
Your family seem to be drifted a little.
However, if you are the good guy,
you will think of getting a part time job.
Job experience for man to me are important.
You will want to start saving up money too.
Those are my thoughts by the way,
man.
And I was only in Sec 4,
taking my N levels.
In less than 2 months,
I will soon experience a much gigantic difference.
I will be TWENTY!,
and all the others that I grew up with in school will just be 18.
I will be married after I graduate,
and I would be 22 plus by then,
but still have yet to get engage.
Being 19 was a whole lot of challenge.
Just don't compare me with how you will be when you are 19
because yours will totally be different.
But as for feelings and thoughts,
kinda the same, maybe.
Very challenging.
Emotional.
But you can get very groovy with the thought of being 19
because you will soon be hitting the the number 2!
Very exciting though.
Ladies, just be careful when you are turning 20.
Your mind set will twist a little or a lot,
I do not know.
But as for sure, you will feel changes.
Excited?
I have yet to hit mine very soon.
Hopefully it will turn out to be the best of the best!
Ahah!
Jeng Jeng Jeng...
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