I want things to be my way.
I want myself to be happy.
I want to understand things the way I see it.
However, I realise that it is impossible.
I can complain and argue as much as I want
but that will not solve anything.
I think, I just showed my weakness.
I might not understand the situation around me.
I might be going to other people to share my feelings
other than just him.
He seem to be different nowadays.
I don't think it is me who drifts away.
It is his character of cruelty which drifts me away.
He has been showing his anger toward me.
I feel like the history of bully returns.
I cannot accept watching myself that I am alright with it
because it hurts within.
It feel like I am not being respected as a woman.
When a man cannot find love with one,
he will hunt for another.
It does not matter what principles he promises.
It is the action and words that are seen and heard.
Life is unfair though.
I will try my best not to be complaining too much.
I might and will accept to the new atmosphere.
I know I will be sacrificing myself, again.
Thus, I think that is stupid of me.
But what else can I do
beacuse *@ *&$# @# %#^@%#+@!%
so now, #$& ^%^%%$%& ^%&%*%$&^ #%$^@&.
______________________________BING BING; nadia______________________________
