You speak.
You talk.
You blabber.
But it seems to be useless.
There is nothing else anyone can say
because everything is already said or argued.
Everything seems to be useless.
Dreaming something big
and always wanting it to happen
may just not turn out reality.
In the end, you think your dream is useless.
Has someone really shattered my dreams?
You can say whatever you want most of the time.
But you can never run away from expectations of others.
With expectations,
decisions are much harder and careful to make.
If anything happens,
you can never control the mouths of human beings.
They are just the way they are.
Maybe they will not say it in front of you
but news will spread to people you don't even know...yet.
I don't know how this turned out to be.
Maybe it is because I had thought that things
might just go as smooth as I thought so.
But unfortunately, it hasn't.
I have the man in front of me.
But there are years ahead that awaits me anxiously.
That is what I don't like.
Maybe I just rush things too much huh.
However, I really don't wish to even see myself as 25
just to tie the knot!
I'd rather just get someone who is really ready.
And just let me bring up those angels.
And studying again comes after...
Is that so hard to except?
Hmm...I am just having big dreams now.
Simply dreams that shall not happen.
Wishing for that day to come.
But I think that day will just be in 100 years from now!
Someone will soon say these to someone:
1) Wow! She want to plan her day the way she wants it to be. Surely it will be grand!
So, where does the fulus come from?
2) She wanna krow now? Goodness!, how much can she nrae?!
How much can she save in her torn pocket? And with her obsession
with items she sees, MAN!, it's true to say that her pocket has a hole!
3) Her seohs, I don't think that can last.
There seem to be no progress now.
And, I don't think there will be any in the future.
4) With her talent, I don't think she can go far.
She will still need to find a proper krow.
But with that PID!
5) Haiya, JUST GO BACK HOME!!!
Die with all the people that you grew up with.
Die a nothing in the end...
Really no one hear your cries.
If there is nothing I can do,
the simplest is to just go the path alone.
From there, I shall not make anyone unhappy
or even need to hit other's expectations.
Now, when the talking starts from the other side,
they are looking forward for smart, wise
and mature decisions.
If the cut soon gets deeper, I will make a drastic move.
A move that I will be very broken hearted.
And everyone else around...from my side.
______________________________BING BING; nadia______________________________
