Salt water was cripping down.
Thus, it began to get even heavier.
I was so emotional.
I had to walk away.
I know it will get better only if he speaks out.
However, I don't think he has the guts to.
It is sad for me to know.
But how could he not be strong enough?
I am tired.
So does he.
But I feel that he does nothing about it.
He seems to allow everything to flow.
I realise that he has just been blabbering his words,
but none seems to happen.
Now all I hear is silence
and "I don't know".
Phobia?
She MUST be the cause of it.
And just by ONE person,
I don't understand why it turns out to be as if
there is no more hopes.
Couldn't he try again?
Couldn't they just accept whoever he is with?
What is there to worry so much?
Just let life happen as what He wants it to
and not hear you treat me like a baby.
I think he is weak.
I think he thinks negatively.
I think I am strong and weak.
I think I am positive thinker.
Sayang.
Cinta.
Kasih.
Memang tetap ada.
I don't ever wish to see him go away.
Accepting him is already there.
People in the house LOVES him.
So how am I or we to ever let him go.
We know his weakness
but that he could change
if he realise that he hurts people at times...
He has to fight.
Fight for the sake of love,
or fight for the sake that nothing turns out right?
This is not about the future.
It is about NOW that I am referring to.
The future is there,
the seconds ahead us will pass by.
The moves you make now reflexs to the future.
Long term, short term,
that is how you judge.
but never judge it by someones weakness.
I am now look down by someone
that I really wish to consider my Ibu.
I am now look out by someone
that I really wish to be comfortable with.
Maybe loosing me is really nothing
to anyone on the other side...
______________________________BING BING; nadia______________________________
