Reflecting at the history
and looking at the present,
I realise that I have been bless with so much.
Syukur Alhamdulillah!
Yes, life is a roller coaster.
There will always be ups and downs.
Sometimes, you feel like letting go of everything at once.
Next thing, the hikmah shows.
Suicide are at the midst of thoughts
when you question why are you living for.
However, there seem to be something more blessing
than anything else that cheers life into a bliss.
I can never sujud and thank Him enough.
There may be deeds that I am ashamed now.
I realise and I know.
Only it is Him to decide if He forgives
and still blesses me with Nur;
especially for the lover birds like me and him.
Hope for the better is always there, insya'Allah.
I love him so much that
I couldn't bear to let him go.
I cried, not only because he would never come back again,
but how am I to live without him?
Thus, it is not only me who has fallen in love,
but so does the whole family.
They couldn't see me cry.
They questioned my tears and they themselves had to tear.
'Separation' is now a taboo in the family.
My eyes now puff like gold fish.
It has been two weeks since crying was back.
This time, cries that are not meant for being remorseful
but because the perfect lover is in front of me.
It will be death if he ever leaves me
or if I were to leave too...
"Kalau dah jodoh, jodoh tu tidak akan ke mana-mana.
Tetap berada di sisi mu."
Mahal na mahal kita lagi...
Nanjan lang ako para sa iyo.
Laging din kita ingatin.
______________________________BING BING; nadia______________________________
