The start was scary.
There were already bad thoughts in mind.
Are things going to turn out good?
Are things going to be the way it is...as always?
We become closer.
Comfortable.
There is nothing in between...so far.
But is breaking the rule any good?
My mind speaks like crazy,
and the thoughts of getting over it occurs.
I get frustrated when the whispers gather in my head.
It really sucks.
There were phone call issues.
There were about 'her' issues.
There were...hmmm...many other issues.
But there were none that won so far.
It is unpredictable what will happen next
and what we would do next.
Especially challenges that we may face.
But so far, to me is a miracle and blessing.
Affection.
Lust.
Sensational feelings.
They are what we have in us.
But can it be controlled?
This new month,
there will be bigger issue to happen.
I have to do something fast.
I have to get myself moving.
I need to ask around.
Teaching may be one of the solution.
It will sure benefit me, myself and I...A LOT!
But when am I going to start?
I have to start my revisions now.
I hate it to think that something moves.
Something that grows.
Something that...gosh, I think it is just my mind.
But will I get the support from him?
How will I react?
Especially him!
Haven't I shit these days
because it may just be shits in there.
Hmm...i hate these thoughts...really!
Ouh...when no one knows what...
______________________________BING BING; nadia______________________________
