I wish my mind is a blog,
that records all my thoughts each second.
I wish my pair of eyes is a digital camera,
that snaps beautiful memories.
Oh how I wish badly that I have a place in Heaven...

Allah have created so many beautiful people in this world.
He has created each and everyone of us individually.
And it is a blessing that he have created me.
Alhamdulillah!

I am afraid to think of the new generation.
I am afraid to see and read new creative creations made.
I ponder how long more shall I see the world torture itself.

Only He knows when the day strikes.
But He gave us clues on how sooner it shall strike us.
He even shared points to make us feel utterly frightened
on what will happen when the day strikes.
But I wonder how many people care about it now.

Or do they even know that there is such thing?

Where have my people gone to?
And where have the hard work of the 25 prophets gone to?
Shall I say...they have forgotten why they are HERE?

2008 is not over yet.
But looking back at the path that I just walked,
I realise it was not a mundane life compared to the other years.
My 2008 had the best and the worst,
and yet still more to come...

So much things but so little time.

I know I have the most emotional moments this year.
Emotions that just cries within but heard by Allah.
He understands what I yell from inside me.
Neither concerning my studies nor family.

It is about the people I see.

Talking about my religion is something that makes me weak
-EMOTIONALLY.
It is not because I am weak in iman,
but I am sadden by what I see before me.

Don't you feel frightened at all?

Ramadhan is coming soon.
How I wish it will be forever.
But where do I see the appreciators of Ramadhan?
And what do I hear from people even before Ramadhan?

The beautiful month of Ramadhan will soon come slowly...
Or shall I say that it will pass by like a second only?
YA ALLAH please don't!

How much do you know about yourself being a born Muslimin and Muslimah?
You should sujud to thank him for blessing you as one!

I have realise a lot and learned a lot so far.
People is what I realise and learn.

As I spoke to my juniors,
I feel that urge of sadness running inside.
I wanted to breakdown in tears but I had to control.
I know that they can change because they themselves want to.
But I told myself,
the hard work to change the attitude is not from them alone,
but from those who have the first impression of how bad they are
and giving them the chance to show how beautiful people they are, actually.

But all I could do for them right now is,
be someone that they can turn up to for help and guidance,
and also being the mother that cares.
That is from me.
But may Allah open up their hearts because it is He who owns them.
Only He shall brighten up their path.

Oh Allah, please give me the strength I need
because I sense your whispers in the path that your bring me.
Syukran!

Time ticks and never stops till the day.
But if you take too long to realise,
He will just grab whatever He gave you
and let you be alone.
Allah is all Mercy and Thoughtful,
But if you take it for grunted,
He shall destroy you too...