Can you please allow me to stab myself
but without wounding or hurting myself?

Can you please let me laugh out loud
till I can't laugh anymore and just end up
crying my heart out?

You need to allow me please.
You need to.
I beg you.

Hmm...maybe I am just too drama mama
that people will end up thinking that
I am weird inside.

My brain thinks weirdly.

I am just so insecure.
Eventually, it is true.
For now...
and is it till forever?

Hope not.

How could you be so cruel
and selfish?!
How could you hide yourself?
How could you?!

I really can't get that thoughts out my mind.
It appears all the time when I want to leave you.
It is not just about that,
but it is you too.

You just keep the silence rolling.
You just leave me alone
and not bothering what I feel.
You are just so...argh.

Well, who cares any how.

Next time,
WARN ME!
PLEASE!