It is hard to control yourself sometimes.
It is hard to be patient at a very particular point of time.
A time when you really need to.
A time when you are going to breakdown really low.

It is just unstoppable.
It is just uncontrollable.

I've got an epoch of emotions these past few days.
I have been showing black and white expressions.
But the merriment me will always be there.
All thanks to the angels surrounding me in hell,
My girlfriends.

I don't mean to tip-toe away
And hide myself like a timid mouse.
I don't mean to sit deserted away
And act like I need my darlings to come to me.
I don't mean to be sulky
And, you, my darlings feel like I'm being too emo.
I don't need that sympathy
But just empathy.

I'm so sorry
But it is just the unexplainable me at the moment.
Please don't curse me.
I don't mean any harm.
I know what you darlings may whisper about.
But I'm so touch for all your presence
Which I really need them.
I just need those smiles and jokes
To cheer the inner me.

I don't fake those laughters.
I don't fake those winks.
And I don't fake those smiles.
You darlings have done nothing wrong of course,
It is just me.
Have empathy.
I'm sure you too have those insanely emotions
Running like crazy in your brains.
Hee.

Love you darlings.
Muah.

Today, my mummy,
Just turned 53 years old.
But as always,
Looking so much younger and younger.
And always the humorous joker to brighten up the mood.

I had a plan to shop after busting my brains in hell.

Unfortunately, today had to stay in extra.
And Victoria really drilled my head even dipper.
She drilled me with a spinning brain.
She drilled me with a spinning eyes.
And evil victoria always won to make me look dumb.
I was just so uncontrollable.
I broke down while walking my way to the path
That I will forever stroll my way, alone.
Unless, darlings are there.

The diamonds wanted to flow.
But I didn't want to show.
The mucus wanted too.
But I just had to sucked them in
As though I was having a cold.
Eventually, I was having it too.
Goodness!

While strolling,
I was still fuming with Victoria.
I'm wondering why is she so involve in my life
But I won't even need her in my future.
Is it?
Nope.
Don't even think so.
However, I still got to keep her,
Just a little longer.

Hate you!, Victoria.