The devil and angel have been bickering in my ears.
Confusing me with things that I'm not suppose to hear or bother.
But they have done it habitually.
Am I turning insane or what?!

I want things to keep going forever.
I want that remorseful feeling not to go wrong.
If it is so,
I will never pardon myself.
I will just swearword to myself.
And the worse thing,
Not getting myself involve in matrimonial!

I will just live a life of my own.
Earn a living.
Travel around the world with people who have never travelled.
Live in a house of adopted angels,
Where I nurture them like my own.
Be a founder of a art school
Or teach in a school.
But all this will happen in a place where I'll settle,
Philippines.
(most probably)

A place where people are so affable.
I just love the kampong style of living.
So peaceful.
So calm.
With all my beloved childhood friends around,
It's JUST SO AMAZING life and people to live in.
I just can't wait to reappear there again.
It's been a leap years now.

People try to brain wash me with;
"What will you do there???"
"What living can you make???"

Well, say all you can.
I have faith that with this dream of mine,
I can make those people blissfully happy.
I can live a peaceful life...
OF MY OWN too.

Oh for goodness sake,
I know I have gone through a
BIG MISTAKE!

It's really not worth of me to do that,
Because I told myself NOT TO.
But I DID!
Uuurrgh!

And now,
I'm going insane and obsessed about it.
But actually,
I SHOULD BE!
(see, the devil speaks)

Moreover,
I have a very hilarious state of mind nowadays.
Feelings that really bamboozle myself.
But I giggle to it .
However, I'd fairly keep those mess to myself.
(shhh...)

By the way,
Don't wrap-up that I'm upbraiding anyone,
Because I've been talking to myself in front of the mirror,
CURSING like no one hears.
WHISPERING like no one worries.
CRYING & LAUGHING like no one sees.
It is all about I personally!

Oh any way,
Please,
GUIDE ME TO PARADISE.
But for now,
PLEASE BRIGHTEN UP MY LIFE.