I'm seeing the big letter everywhere in my house.
I'm hearing it being mention anywhere I go.
It is all about the path of life that I am heading to right now.
Is it a burden to take this path?
I wonder...
Listening to them talk,
I believe in it.
But what if I can prove them wrong?
Or is it too late to achieve it now?
I'm now 18.
But people are already jumping that I'll be 20 next year.
Unfortunately it is true.
Talking about the future,
There is already thoughts sprinting in.
I wonder if I will work or continue studying.
Half of me says, "Work."
The other half, "Study."
If I were to work,
(which eventually is needed for my financial)
Do I find the permenant one,
- Ground stewardess or
- Immigration
Or do I just work for the sake of helping out my family?
If I were to study,
(which I would love to)
Am I able to achieve my score in the first place which I would want to take up courses of,
- Interior Design,
- Fashion Design or
- Law and Mangement.
Is that possible?
Hmm, why talk about the future when my present is so lost.
I mean, seriously.
The thing that is bothering me badly right now is the truth.
And I think that it is really happening.
I can sense that people are just so happy and proud with themselve being able go through.
But the main question is,
CAN YOU ACHIEVE IT???
If the guiders are to tell us that we will drop twice the score,
Why must we even continue?
Why must we carry the burden and may not go through the future that we wished for?
And, these guiders have new knowledge that is still not in our brains.
And for the knowledge that we already have now seems to be a hectic.
So how long can I take this pressure?
What if I did not achieve?
is I Think of mE
for me???
If I am going to live my life as a designer, artist and doing creations,
Are those CERTS going to help me?
Oh, i'm just breaking down inside me.
Really can't help it when I start to bother so much,
WHICH I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO!
[oh, how idiot of me]
And it is all becuase I have choosen this path.
But I still wonder,
How I wish I could read the story of my life that He wrote.
Guide me please...
______________________________BING BING; nadia______________________________